Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Jackson: My Spiritual Giant
My oldest has really been amazing me lately. I feel like God is really working in his little heart to show him things that Jackson is capable of understanding at such a young age. Jack desperately wants a baby...a little sister. And while I would love to give him this, there's still some reservations about the timing. Plus, Jon and I are just not on the same page at this point in the game. We have been praying about this daily...but God has not given us a clear answer which leads me to believe the answer is..."Wait." I hate that answer. Of all answers from God, "Wait" is always the hardest. I'd almost rather hear "No," than "Wait."
Jackson prays for this every night and about every day he asks why God hasn't answered his prayer, yet. That's really a hard answer to give a child, especially because I feel guilty that if he knew we were totally CAPABLE of giving him this, he would probably be really disappointed that we hadn't. But, I keep reminding him that God is the giver of life and God is in control. While I'm telling him this, I'm telling myself the same thing.
Tonight, Jack's prayer went like this, "God, thank you for letting me go to church tonight and worship you and thank you for all the boys and girls that came to Awanas. Thank you for all your creation...and please CREATE a baby in my mom's tummy. I'm waiting. Amen." Yikes! This kid means business.
I'm just praying that God answers Jack's prayer too. Not just ours, but that He gives Jackson an answer that he can understand. Whether that means a baby or a lack of desire for a baby.
"Now may the God who gives comfort and strength in waiting make you of the same mind with one another in harmony with Christ Jesus…" Romans 15:5
"I am waiting for the Lord, my soul is waiting for Him, and my hope is in His Word." Psalms 130:5
"Jehovah is pleased with those fearing Him, with those waiting for His kindness." Psalms 147:11
"When I was waiting quietly for the Lord, His heart was turned to me, and He gave ear to my cry." Psalms 40:1
"And those who have knowledge of Your Name will put their faith in You; because you, Lord, have ever given Your help to those who were waiting for you." Psalms 9:10
Psalm 27:14 "Wait for the Lord; Be strong, and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the Lord."
Lamentations 3:25 "The LORD is good to those who wait for Him, To the person who seeks Him."
Psalm 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God."